Depression ??!

"Kenapa markah latihan mengajar kamu teruk?”
"Bukan ke kamu ni seorang yg berani?"

Ya. Itulah soalan yang paling aku mahu elakkan sekiranya boleh. Tapi aku tak mampu nak elak. Soalan tu juga yg muncul. Nak tahu jawapannya?

Have u heard about this quote..
'No one will know about yourself unless only you will know about yourself'
Yes. That's the answer for that question. Tiada seorang pon yg tahu tentang diri ni melainkan aku seorang yg tahu siapa diri aku sebenar. Kenapa? Orang sibuk kata aku seorang yg kuat, seorang yg berani. Pada mata kasar mmg betul. Tp dalam diri ni hanya Allah sahaja yg mengetahui betapa takutnya aku dengan bayang-bayang sendiri. Ibarat seperti satu makhluk hitam mengejar aku di saat aku cuba berdiri sendirian dan pada ketika itu kaki dan lidah seperti terikat serta mahukan pertolongan. Jujur aku katakan, aku masih belum mampu untuk berdiri atas kaki sendiri seperti orang-orang luar katakan. But no one will understand what i'm feel. The important things now is i need a support in my life. Super support is my strength and alone is my weakness.  This word doesn't mean i'm break down but the truly was i'm in depression mood and still cannot move on with the situation. That's why i need someone that can cool down my depression.

Why i'm depression??
Because all the problems was on my shoulder and i can't take it anymore. I'm truly tired and need a rest for a few years. I know it's never been happen and what ever it is i have to face it until everything will be done. Too much problems until i don't know what is the problems about. I'm sorry.